thenatstory.com: January 2008

Thursday, January 31, 2008

Sapless.

the journey has yet to begin.

I'll have to build a bridge in order to cross over to the other side, fresh maple leaves shall touch my fingertips for real.

anyways, very sudden liking for this Chinese girl, Zhang Li In, based in Korea (well, what more), who's 18. My attention will probably fade by tomorrow or the day after. Some people may not like the way she uses her voice but its strong. And I love listening to people who can sing well. Really.

chorus lookout. the range of her chords are really wide although beatable by the previous Phillipine Charice Pempengco (who went on Elle's show anyway!)

here's the LIVE version

the next is her cover for Kelly Clarkson's Timeless.

Tuesday, January 29, 2008

Anytime, Anywhere, Any Love.

eh, do you think anybody actually robs a Mcdonald deliveryman?

i've been asking so many people but nobody wants to answer me pfft.

why do these people compose the best jumpy songs only as advertising gimmicks. why!

these few days I'm so used to freezing myself before getting into bed. Everynight I tell myself "no" because I end up getting cramps in my leg due to the cold pfft. It's almost as if the body absorbs cold instead of heat. But it's all alright, because I can finally start reusing my school socks.

i don't know if it's weird but when somebody brings up something about school, it happens to be "just another past". I don't know if I'm not missing it because it never meant much to me because it's totally untrue. I do like school but I just felt that I have appreciated it enough back then and it's time to move on. There have YET to be times when I really want to go back and chant to the lazy morning greetings. Everytime I step into the school compound to send the brother off, it just feels like..... I'm really just dropping him off.

The page has long flipped and it just isn't time for me to check if I had placed a fullstop where a comma should be.

anyway, the family was shopping for furnitures and...

I accidentally set the self timer to 10 secs so I was smiling while waiting for the "2 second self timer" to work and was about to check before it clicked right away. therefore the expression.

why lah I only live with THIS expression sigh. (looks up at banner)

no wonder they say....hmm.

I kept wondering about how people made themselves look very happy in pictures pfft so I decided to give it a shot pfft.

Ka Yi who gives very spontaneous hugs from behind.

Over at Gloria's to celebrate Shan and Kayi's birthday. Poor Ka yi only had chocopie's as her substitute cake.

D'lish over at Mid valley. Look at THAT layer of caramel. Too sweet too sweet =S

the banana chocolate muffin which was really warm at serving made it really good.

Friday, January 25, 2008

Surv Awey.

pfft I just decided it'd be a better title than just "Survey". Sigh I'm so creative pfft.

What was your dream when you were a small kid?
If there was something I remember dreaming about, it was to open a bakery that only sells cheesebreads.

The cousin Emily and I used to have so much free time at home we kept making cheese toasted loafbreads by steaming them in the big wok that tech grandmother uses for frying her fishes pfft. Well of course, at an elementary age, we only "got to work" whenever the grandmother takes her afternoon nap etc. There was once we got out of sugar, Emz dragged me out of the house leaving me in horrible fear because I was born paranoid about almost anything. So before we left for the groceries 15 minutes away, I insisted on writing a note telling the grandmother I'm very sorry for doing this and that I have to because it's the only way pfft. Like writing suicide letter omg.

For your information I wrote in English, which my gramps is completely uncapable of reading. I also remember wasting alot of time thinking where to place the paper where she could read it so the cousin got very angry and told me to just leave it on the steps. So we left and I kept sobbing all the way to the groceries because if I get caught I'm so dead. But we came back, and our grandmother was still sleeping soundly upstairs pfft.

Yeah, thats how dedicated we were.

Actually things still evolve the same way. Just at another aspect.

What is the happiest thing in your whole life?
I haven't been through it. Perhaps the moment I set eyes on tomyam goong in Thailand pfft.

What do you wish to have right now?
I wish to have lots of mandarin oranges stocked up beside the bed so that I can munch them up anytime. Well, just joking.

I wish to work part time really badly. I'm only relying on Nuffnang sigh and it's not even a job. I'm just sitting here waiting for Nuffnang to pay me pfft. Get me a part time!

When was the last time your Horse laugh?
Why got grammatical error in question pfft.

I'm a Horse so I'd assume it's asking about me.

Uhm, the last time I laughed was when I was watching this variety show about archery teehee.

What did you realize recently?
I have realized that I am, uhm, quite short.

Which bad habit in you that is most unacceptable?
Sarcasm.

When you are unhappy, what will you do?
I don't talk. So in order for people to not talk to me, I listen to music pfft.

Within 5 years, which target is the most realistic one?
To be able to complete whatever course needed to accomplish what I currently am in hope of becoming.

List out 3 kind of people you hate the most
People who don't bother to give things a shot.

Ones who gives up easily.

Those of who looks down on the poor.

Define Loneliness
Loneliness to me is when all your friends are around you, talking and laughing with you, but at the same time, you don't feel like you blend in.

Are you satisfied with your life now?
I am satisfied with my life. In other words, I get satisfied really easily but it all depends on who and what is placed in front of me. Satisfaction to me is a measuring unit of demand. I can choose, whether to demand less or more. I guess I never really opt for the more because the worst things can happen.

I could ask for slippers and fall then bleed. But I'll heal quickly.

I could ask for a pair of 3 inch heels. But in turn, instead of falling and bleeding, I could have twisted and broke an ankle. In the end, healing takes up more time.

I shouldn't have asked to become taller afterall.

I don't know if you get what I mean, but yeah.

When is the most recent time you felt touched?
When we tried our best to look for a house, no I correct, a home for a 14 year old dog.

Where is the most beautiful place that you've visited?
We can't deny the most beautiful places in Asia should be deeply shoved away in the corners of China. I can't possible name one place because I have yet to witness a scene so captiving but I guess I did feel really good when I laid my feet on the man made Great Wall of China.

A song that is playing in your mind recently
The acapella version of Forever Love by THSK.

If you have a wish come true, what is it?
I'd want my brother to grow well and be capable of things.

Do you have anything to be worried or scared of recently?
There are a couple of things, but I don't wish to talk about it at such a public scope.

If the world is going to end, what will you do?
If I had more than two days, I'd write letter to everyone who played a role in my life.

20. What were you doing 2 hours ago?
Throwing out puzzles, beads and everything unused.

Wednesday, January 23, 2008

SSG Student Council 2007 FAQS

I am so angry.

I have no idea if this is going to be just a 15 minute post but I hope it will be sufficient for me to clear things up about the Student Council of Year 2007.

I bumped into a blog of an ex schoolmate and she was righteously standing up for the rights of students, which is a very brave thing to do considering a number of students got suspended because of relating their posts to their misconducts of the school at such a public extent.

We never really brought up the downs of being in the council last year, mostly because we actualyl decided to make the best out of the worst and it wasn't even necessary for us to rant about whatever that didn't make it to the top or failed to work out. I thought we didn't have to explain each and every detail of the council because privacy and confidentiality is very important before each event or proposal is brought forward.

Now that I have left the school, I cannot bear but to tell you what the council did for the school. I, personally, have to admit that I didn't contribute much but seeing the comments on the mentioned blog brought me to much anger because we definitely tried.

For this post, I will be referring to each and every comment from said blog and answer to it as part of the council because everybody needs to know what happens - behind the scene. Now that the votings are going to begin, it's better anyway to get to know better what it takes to be in the council and who you should vote for.

Okay look, as students of the school, we all know what's evolving around us. All the ups and downs, the broken pipe in the girls toilet, the need for boys to embarrassingly ask for more toilet papers from the girls over at the girl's toilet when they need to do their business, the lockers, the canteen, the uniform --- everything. We all know too well to even complain because it has become a normal sight as well as a default complain each time the school asks for "honest feedbacks".

I'll highlight the events so that it'd be an easier guide to read whichever section you want.

International Food Fiesta 2007

Many MUST have been wondering, where could have the money from such a grand event disappeared to.

Well first, for the knowledge of students, earnings from events organised by the Student Council will be first cleared into an account with the assistance of the school's official one and only accountant. Then, it is distributed to different areas according to the decisions of the council and Mr.Khaw, as adviser for the board.

As far as we are concerned, 70% of the money earned from IFF last year has been transferred to all curricular clubs for the financial support that has been brought forward to this year's account. As for the 30% left, it's being left in the accounts of the Student Council board for the subsidies for clubs that may need help financially at certain circumstances. Yet, only two or three clubs are active in the school so this 30% have mainly gone to these two to three clubs because they were the only ones organizing events. For example, the Kiwanis club, the Interact Club and the Prefectorial board.

Balance of Council Account

yeah we took it all and bought ourselves char kuay teow to eat overnight.

obviously not.

For the student's information once again, the balance for the Student Council's account is managed by the school's official accountant so student's can stop worrying about the board directors taking away your money secretly because every time we have to subsidize an amount of money, it has to go through alot of black and white processes for the accountant over at the 6th floor of the new wing to hand it directly to the clubs or societies themselves. The council is only in charge of approving the subsidization form based on certain matters.

The subsidies have been used for the council's self organized programs such as the Yellow House Charity program, the kindergarten and primary section's Children's Day and all the miscellaneous events you would have noticed if you took notice. The council is part of the whole school (from nursery till Form 5), so not every event is noticed by the secondary section, who happens to be more sensitive to school politics. Good start.

Canteen

Now before we start thinking the canteen belongs to the school, it's not.

We have talked about this with Mr.Khaw - regarding the food prices, the inaccuracy of the balance returned to students, hygiene and staff ethnicity. As students ourselves, we wanted what's for the best for our own benefits too. This has been a matter that has been endlessly brought up during meetings after school.

I know best because I was the one sending in letters and collecting signatures from students to go against this whole thing.

But alot of procedure couldn't be brought forward because of a certain contract the school has had with Sodexho, our current canteen operator. In other words, Sodexho isn't working for the school. It's on its own. So there really isn't anything the school can do unless the school decides to tick Sodexho off the operating list.

The canteen itself is the school's but the operating system (food, drinks, chef, price etc) isn't.

I do hope things get better this year though.

Lockers

Many would have realised that there have been a whole plenty of vacant lockers, all fully vandalised and smashed through by anonymous's at the corridoes of the fourth floor.

Not only we asked the school to clear it off since it wasn't in use, but we propsed for a whole set of new lockers for the advantages of students so that the students will be able to place their books at a safe spot, not having to worry about loosing Textbook A or B during recess.

But apparently, due to the lack of space in the school, we cannot afford to hve new locks because the amount of students in school is growing and quoted "we need to have more space for the students to walk around'.

Space for unused vacant lockers, no space for new usable lockers?

Don't ask us. We never understood either.

Emily was very persistant about lockers so she brought it up every single time we hold a meeting but it never fails to lead to the same answer.

Students Complain - Where To?

I can't really direct you to SOMEWHERE in the school that will guarantee that your complain will be fully entertained.

The best answer - parent's personal meeting.

The council is there to help, but we have to all be realistic. The council board members are students as well. What would a group of middle aged authorities think of opinions of a board of youngsters who range from the age of 13 to 17? If you were somebody at 58, would u listen to a couple of teenagers and change the school based solely on their comments?

Based on last year, student's never really acknowledged the council as part of the middleman. We had to search for complains by interviewing students sometimes to dig up their upsets about the school. This is why, the council could never magnify the REAL problem of the students of the school in general based on just seven brave students who speak up their mind.

We're students. The school has to be in our shoes to finally listen and understand us.

But as paying parents, it's another story. You know what I mean.

Student Rights

I don't really know how to categorize this but I guess many students from the school never really got to experience the assembly for the upper secondary section. This is because majority of the happenings of the council is publicly announced almost every week and at least,for more than twice, Mr.Khaw and the school's 2007 president Ju Piau have had a public "argument" regarding the rights of students.

"..but Mr.Khaw, you said that we could have X during our meeting last week"

" (grins) my dear Ju Piau, you have got it all wrong"

"..no Sir. Our council members were there."

"Okay okay, I guess there's a misunderstanding. We'll talk about this and inform to you students later in the next assembly."

I guess only the board senses situations like that because we all have big grins on our faces everytime this happens.

We do fill up to our responsibilities to bring honesty of meetings and declare empty promises made during meetings, but as usual, as principle of the school - nothing is supposed to look or hear bad.

Bottom line, it will finally be touched up and it will seem like the council has forgotten everything about standing up for the students when that isn't really the case.

As Part Of The Council

As part of the council, the members should know that they are now the middleman of both students and the school administration. Therefore, privacy of different matters should be kept private if possible and only leaked if necessary. Names shouldn't be used at any occasions especially in public because it leads to two simple words - school POLITICS.

Consequences are a must to take note of especially when you are already in the council. Whatever faults or mark of proofs of your wrongdoing will be taken as a guideline throughout your thorough duty as a council member. The wrong subsidy, the wrong decision, the wrong choice, the wrong vocabulary, the wrong phrase, the wrong nod, the wrong gesture, the wrong comments. It doesn't seem as important but once you're caught doing something that's not up to "expectation", you're very unlike to get away from it unless you leave school.

Bottom Line :

Every year, the student council is being mistakenly treated as a race for popularity when in reality, it is a place where you learn more about the rationality and extend of human rights, the importance of making decisions that could effect a group of more than 200 students, important interaction between strangers to ease relationships between boards within schools, missing important lessons, very likely to gain criticisms from people who aren't involved, ripped posters, and all the drama within the period of teamwork and shades of different opinions.

It's funny im putting myself into all these trouble but I cannot bear seeing all this drama happening.

well, if you have comments - feel free to leave it at the comment box for this post if its long and speak on close observations. not just simply fling your opinions just because you didn't see things happening. if you have any questions regarding the student council of 2007 feel free to ask me whatever it is. i'll be happy to answer you.

officially my longest post.

Tuesday, January 22, 2008

Ahmoi Suka La You!

today is the final day I'd have to ever come to this place again because teehee.
I passed my driving test today.

It was all trauma in the beginning because my friends and I kept discussing about the process and reviews from other friends who had failed and passed from before the moment our eyes met each other. Joey and Sab went to the washroom for about three times in two hours (at least if felt like it to me) and felt like going again while we were pending!

Sean and Darren was there too so we weren't all that worned off from waiting.

Sab, Joey and I were shaking like crazy worrying about not being able to brake on time for the slope and us sitting there waiting while looking at others do it wasn't helping either. The whole time I was so freaked out I kept talking and talking and talking but Joey and Sab was in superb silent mode because they were very worried as well. I kept asking them questions, all the what if's and how to's when this or that happens or if there's Plan A or Plan B when Plan C doesnt work pfft.

I thought the people around were getting really sick of me because I had all the most irritating "ohmygawd's", "ouch!", "no!!", "don't fall!!!" while watching the other do their thing. When it was my turn, I sat in the car and checked out the clutch of the vehicle which was rumoured to be at an elevated level if compared from the one we used to drive.

I was so worried about the height of the clutch I just kept stepping on it without moving the car although I was next and there was this huge gap in between the Start line and my vehicel pfft. So I panicked and started to accelerate the car but it didn't move because I hadn't got used to the car so I lifted it a little more and it started moving.

We did the slope FIRST, which explains my paranoid behaviour. The examiner didn't look friendly at all and was smoking away, shouting from one end to the other so it added to my worries. As I was at the starting position, I kept speaking to myself and decided the talking only made me more nervous so I decided to calm myself by humming and the most random song came in mind - the Chinese children song - Two Tigers pfft. It didn't seem weird then but it just knocked into my head a whole lot after.

Anyways I was speaking again to myself while heading up, begging myself to take the brake just in time for the yellow line. Well I was lucky to have made it perfectly the first time, because when I started balancing the car and rested the handbrake, the car started reversing a little. Imy eyes shifted to measure if the pole and the side mirror was parallel and it was so way behind! I thought that was the end of me but I tend to do the right thing whenever I panic pfft. I was lucky to have attacked the brake the instant it backforwarded, so the tyre was still on the yellow line. The moment I went down the slope I was happy like crazy because if I knew if I passed this it means I have passed everything because the parking and three point turn wasn't that much of a headache.

Anyways all my examiners turned out to be really friendly.

The one who tested my parking was really nice because I actually just sat there in the car after parking, forgetting to raise my hand to mark it as a wrap and never thought of the 5 minute time limit. He was talking to me before I did the parking and said "ahmoi, you mesti dapat ya. buat baik baik" (you must be able, do it well!). So I was in the car, staring at him, he stared back at me and I just nodded and left pfft. I came back and he stared at me with this dissapointed face "tak boleh lah moi. you ni..sudah pass"(this is impossible, you...have passed). I thought I sensed sarcasm so I had to look at the results myself. Then he asked me "suka tak" (are you happy?) . I just nodded suka and skipped away pfft.

I noticed they really like using "suka" (like) phrase because my examiner for the driving test on the road (who turned out to be the slope tester I was terrified of) kept using the same phrase as well. Well as usual I was very worried about not being able to handle the car for such a long period with a stranger (one whom I was afraid of!), I went right into the car and kept talking and talking and talking blindlessly to him until I was a little more relaxed. The he started creating conversations, which was a really good thing because I love love people who make conversations. So I tensed down a whole lot more and was even given the chance to choose which road to use.

He was giving me options from the beginning. We talked so much in the car pfft from his best and worst experience throughout his career, I almost felt like I wanted to burst from happiness because a few of my friends got scolded the minute the examiner got into the car. But that's because they didn't talk to them la. I only spoke from being paranoid pfft.

Before I left the car, he told me "Ahmoi. Suka la you memandu. gembira sangat ya". I was like gembira your head pfft scared like cheese and burgers pfft.

Aiyah whatever it is lah, PASS ALL.

kaodim!

teehee my first jajangmyeon, by Gloria.

Monday, January 21, 2008

A Struck Of Blissfull Spark

apparently it isn't often to be able to catch a lightning, even with the naked eye. well, besides Malaysia.

I was rather shocked when I got to know that Malaysia has one of the highest frequency of lightning strikes. In fact, I've seen it so many times and I bet it should already be "just another sight" for Malaysians. Maybe because it rains so frequently over here.

Thunders and lightning.

They could be scary but if I were to choose the most beautiful gift from the above, it would be the art of lightning. Everytime I hear a thunder, I never fail to wait for the strike. Some spreads in such an elegant form that you'd feel like you have actually paid to watch this. this magnificent art of nature.

I once stood at the balcony when it was pouring rain. I forgot if I was waiting for a lightning to strike but I remember watching the football players who were running around at the field right opposite my block in shock. That was a rain never to forget because at one moment, this lightning stroke 90 degrees from above straight down and hit a player. He was down in miliseconds. It was so surreal, watching it all with my own eyes. The players all shook him hard under the rain and lifted him from a car to another.

Until today, I've been wondering if he's still alive.

But that lightning was the most beautiful, although it might have killed a person. as I've never got to see one so close.

I was watching this video on Youtube and in it, they were asking the audiences if they have ever seen lightning. Some looked as if they didn't know what that was so I decided to search it up, traslation = more videos. Turned out so many middle aged Westerners have never had the chance because "it almost never happens over here (there)".

Whatever it is, this is peculiar but - I'm beginning to feel grateful for being able to witness such gorgeous nature.

Friday, January 18, 2008

A Mosquito Got Into My Head

HEADACHE

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Thursday, January 17, 2008

Racing Ahead Time or Time And Money?

oklah so maybe God wants me to start buying albums just for one song pfft. but that's pretty impossible teehee.

anyway aiyah please stop asking me where am I going already! Can't a high school graduate just stay at home and rot!

that's of course not what I'm going to do but I'm just wondering about the whole idea. You know how people react when you tell them that you have yet to decide to take which or what for you so-called planned "future".

"so, where you studying now"

"well, still planning. pretty much staying at home currently"

"my god! what?!"

"what?"

"staying at home? yer. no plans one ar you. i went to college stragithaway after graduating lor"

"yeay. good for you"

"you don't know what you want to do is it? just take business first la! so easy"

"wow. yeah so easy! but your thinking is so much more easy! :D"

What future is there, when some of you who are already attending college, don't even have two cents about whatever you are doing. To so many others, college is just another cycle of life one must go through and they don't even bother what they're doing matters to their "future" because going through college means, proceeding to the "future" to them.

Wow great.

But well, as opinions may differ, I still think it takes time to actually list a whole load of possibilities before choosing where you want to be in the "future" and not just jump into the whole dreamland of attending a college with more lengluis in the business intake or more lengchai's in the engineering intake.

I don't do the best decisions but I know what's best for me, currently.

what is this fantastic idea about the life cycle. why does every students have to go through education and start college immediately after school ends so that it saves time and money, although true. So is time so important that you'd want to race against it even before making the right decisions to refrain from wasting MORE time after realising you don't want to do whatever you're doing now?

I wonder if this is just some over generalized idea about wasting time.

but i have a whole lot more of time to waste in order to not waste MORE time AND money in the future.

Tuesday, January 15, 2008

Ring The Bells!

WHERE CAN I DOWNLOAD MUSIC...ILEGALLY pfft.

im just joking pfft. government people please dont catch me pfft

(no im really serious private message me please im desperate pfft.)

Multiply shut down all their Music column and srubbed off the "Download" tab that's normally hotlinked with the songs.

Imma so sad now.

(pfft I used imma. I'm so damn cool. yodawg whatsup wanna bounce around abit yo)

Monday, January 14, 2008

Kami Orang Muda

for the past few weeks I have been very paranoid about alot of things.

I don't know if paranoid can describe the feeling perfectly like a missing puzzle but yeah. Just gaga afraid and runs hysterical for many many things.

like for example, now that my USB lost its cover I keep reminding myself to place it somewhere save and visible so that I wouldn't lose it and it wouldn't get damaged or something. I tend to get so worried about losing that I always place it at the same spot after using it. There was one day I kept reminding myself to place it back, and when I finally wanted to dispatch the USB of my CPU - IT WAS GONE!!

I turned so worried and was sweaty at the sight of the missing USB and suddenly turned over my blankets, books and everything looking for it only to find that before that I have already placed it back due to being worried sick earlier about losing it.

this didn't happen once, twice or thrice for the same thing but so many other times for other things as well.

I'm only 17 :(

update ::

anyways to turn things over, I'm so delighted that I graduated right on time. :D

Now that the secondary section dismisses at 4pm, I cannot bear to imagine myself losing 20 minutes of nap if compared to the previous dismissal time teehee.

I'm very updated because the bother brings home newsletters pfft.

and for those who have yet to know about this, Sri Garden students , teehee this is a secret I think, since it hasn't been announced in the newsletter

This year apart from having Japanese students coming over, the school will have Korean students coming over too. I have been speaking to Jonathan and he's already arranging the mutual programs that will be held in between the two countries so, for those who have been wondering - woohoo for you!

BUT. there could be changes. :P

Sunday, January 13, 2008

Repost : Just Because I Think I Never Looked This Gorgeous

Saturday, January 12, 2008

얼리다고 놀리지마라요

If I looked in your pocket, what would I find?
I'm at home. Nothing should be in my pocket so that sleep would not be disturbed.

Phone? Silent mode saja. My family can just shout for me across the room or call the house pfft.

Do you go to the bathroom with the door open or close?
I wonder what would happen if somebody practices the habit of using the bathroom with the door open.

Are you happy right now?
There's nothing to frown about.

Something that happened today that has made you mad?
Not, yet. The day isn't over. I'll be meeting the person later this evening so I hope things stay the way they are.

What will you do AFTER this survey?
I'll go watch Music Bank. Oh wait, 50 minutes more.

I guess I'll go search up on what to do after finishing all the goals in Division 47 for the Sims2 on PSP. Help please!

Marriage or living together?
Living together. I guess its due to young age, marriage seems like a nonrefundable contract pfft.

What are you wearing right now?
A green polo-t bottomed with a pair of shorts.

Do you talk about your feelings or hide them?
I'd talk about them when there is a need to. I just don't find it a solution to talk about since I won't feel better anyway. I forget about "feelings" really quickly so it's all good.

Is there something you regret and what?
Regrets come and go. They don't stay long. I can hardly even remember any of them.

First thing you did when you woke up?
Think of lying down more or eavesdrop on the conversation that's happening outside my room. Search for glasses.

Last argument you got into with?
Hardly any. Arguments don't happen. In within my circle of friends it's either pillow talk or no talk. All smooth.

What brand of bag did you last buy?
I don't buy bags.

What shop did you go to for almost 4x in a day?
Well that never happens as well but I guess it should be the hardware or stationary shop. or a music shop with someone playing the instruments/

What are you looking forward to in the next few months?
Spring, Fall, and Winter. New people. New culture.

When will you turn 50?
What's 50 minus 17?

How many pillows are on your bed?
Two. I have to use two pillows because I'm used to my head lifted. One would do if its thick.

What song are you currently listening to rite now?
Girls Generation - Ooh La La.

I don't really like Girls Generation because of Jessica but they're tracks make my feel really good cause they're all very upbeat and happy going.

Googling Around?

pfft aiyoh im slowly beginning to realise I'm a very peculiar person.

I know the the internet is mainly a search engine for all your answers but I think I'm sort of overusing it.

every single thing, every why, every which, and every how. It'll all lead me to Google.com.

the other day I googled up "who created lullabies", "who created salt and why", and alot of super blond questions I don't even want to bring up.

now hui yat (monkeyonkey) has just given me a new thing to search up. the pepper and salt thing if you refer to the cbox.

sigh.

oh, you must try Yahoo! Answers too. You get points for answering and questioning teehee it's so fun. It's almost like some game pfft. They even have answers to why the cups need holders teehee.

Friday, January 11, 2008

Maybe Tomorrow? Maybe Never.

if there was one thing that I would want to runaway from, it'd be your calls.

every time I speak to you, there'd be a fear. A fear that you might bring up the same thing, rant about the same thing, beg sarcastically about that same thing. All because it's the way you want it to be.

I wonder if you have ever thought of my rights of making decisions, or if my decision is solely based on your actions and not because of who I am?

Now you make me so fed up that I feel I'd burst out anytime and tell you straight to your face about your problem and that you should learn to fix the problem yourself and that I am not responsible for whatever you have done or are doing.

Of course, if it wasn't because of you - I would have already volunteered to pull it off myself. Without your sarcasm and your complains about everything that lies under your nose. If you think your the only backbone of this whole thing, does that also mean that you are doing this because you are unwilling to and someone forced you into this?

It's been at least over a decade, you're still the same.

My answer would still inaudible.

But you should know better yourself, the whispers of my heart.

Tuesday, January 08, 2008

Deadlines

Finally I have finished my essay for the college application.

Before this I kept asking myself if I should do it since I didn't know what to write or whether its better to just submit the other documents without the essay. The essay was a necessary information by the way.

deadline deadlines deadlinessss.

although the deadline's just a few days away before the term starts applications are pouring in from all over the world already so I don't know if there's a seat left for me so, fingers crossed! It's fun keeping up with deadlines and making it on time. although currently I don't have any to keep up to any of those, it's joy to just make deadlines up teehee.

well for those who were wondering what took me so long to only finally bother to fill in the application form for the college is because there were a number of obstacles to go through, documents wise, and I was lack of quite a number of it.

Now that I'm only lacking of one (which is nearly impossible to lay my hands on. I said nearly, not impossible.) I decided to just courier the whole thing over without delay just to stamp my name in their directory.

help!

I don't want to rock myself on a rocking chair sewing and complaining of not being able to put the thread through the needle.

p/s : pfft. I kept typing datelines instead of deadlines so if you find any teehee you know what happened pfft cause I mumble along my words while typing.

Monday, January 07, 2008

The "Many" Things One Would Do After Graduating High School

loads and loads of gaming.

i had my gaming era back in 2004. I literally spent the whole day infront of the Play Station and gamed all away racing Crash Bandicoot against that funny psychotic rabbit that speeds faster then you can say zoom. It stopped after a while.

Never thought it would come back.

Now with the brothers new birthday present - the PSP.

welcome to the White family

Well before I forget to mention how addictive these games are, everybody HAS to try Diner Dash on the computer or its latest version Wedding Dash. Well, since I had a hard time searching up the link for the full download, thanks to Fugz, click here for the complete version and forget about trying to 60 minutes trial in Yahoo! Games.

The CD reader broke down so initially I was really upset beacuse I couldnt play Sim2 but now with the brother's PSP - all problems are magically solved. (sprinkles fairy dust) Now my Sims named after me is working hard trying to kill the zombies that come out after 10pm and is still struggling to find a place to take her shower after 3 days, stinking like mad without any cash to buy a deodorant teehee. All she does is pick up rubbish for a living pfft.

Been waking up really early these days for the driving lessons. Phew, I thought I'd survive througout the whole sweet long break by waking up at 2pm each day. At least I'd feel healthier teehee.

It seems that there's news about my tertiary studies flying everywhere although unconfirmed. Well tho those who have heard about it, I'm going nowhere until I receive the acceptance letter alright so you can stop worrying about not having to see me teehee.

(in truth nobody's asking me to stay pfft. self denial cukup.)

i conquer. i am the king of the world! (beats chest)

if someone created snacks like this with just the icing (no biscuit), I'd throw my clothes away and stuff it all up in the closet teehee

Eh, subtotal RM 15.70? How come payment above 1k!

Saturday, January 05, 2008

Tony Romas @ The Curve

If cod fish never existed I'd willingly lift no fork for any other. You know, if you ever go the The Curve, you have to try this cheese baked fish at the Apartment. Damn good.

I never tried this but its vanilla ice cream with oreo flakes.
Anyway I saw on TV today that lately somebody found out another way to making vanilla flavorings - cow dunk. Teehee I'm not joking pfft. Or was it lamb.

Thursday, January 03, 2008

A Forest As Huge As An Ant's Heart

if understanding your culture means looking down upon a person's past, i'd step back and say no.

if I was a person who referred to you as a model for your country, it would have lost a tourist for good the moment you said those words.

if everybody in your country, or everybody that's holding the same religion, holds the same principle in life..the world would have closed down, to a heart, much more narrow than hers.

at least she struggles to free herself

in my opinion, your heart's a whole lot more smaller because you aren't willing to see it from a whole new perception.

never say "we" or "us" when you're speaking your own mind.

Tuesday, January 01, 2008

And The Clock Stroke Twelve.

positive energy.

Need directions to lose yourself into a new page?

it says it all in the picture

damn chio.

while others like Suek Mei are doing this..

here I am, caught in the act teehee. with nick's head pfft.

the cousin Charlieyea.
Initially since young we've always been addressing her as "chouli cheche" - the way Chinese addresses their elder siblings. But soon it got too annoying to pronounce the syllable by syllable so we shortened it to Charlyea.

we had these ceiling deco's hung across the top but it fell off after an hour or two and this is what happens.

Nick celebrated his birthday after the countdown although the exact date's on the 3rd of January. Poor thing has school to go to on his birthday. To come to think of it, he's getting his official identity card next year! (pfft but why still so small size!)

the Chai's.
all looking so sweaty here.

You can see Emily trying to blow the candles from here, me looking as if I was making MY birthday wish haha, and Nick struggling to our beautiful voices singing to the birthday song.

Ini Ian.

Ini Wo Lai Yeah - Ju Koon.

Charlie and I decided to be really ah lian and had our hair tied up really high but you can't really see her puff!

the mess the mess the mess

group picture
note Ee Yang's top that says "Zatan playboy" teehee.

Chai Suek Mei do you recall yourself being like this!

Tension tension!
Everybody must "die"!

These few days damn addicted to the Home Alone pose.

Ju Koon looks like one of the Monkey you find from Microsoft! Remember the purple monkey that repeats everything you type on the tab!

Ini Raja yang Bermaha Esa Ee Yang
We used to talk palace-style so it's an inside joke pfft. I doubt he remembers anymore anyway! Aiyah cannot see this top here!

Emily, Nat, Yumei.

Must have been a loong time since we took a picture together!
Anyway for those has been reading my blog, she's the one who bought me the "Grow A Boyfriend" thing!

I thought I was the only one who likes to hide behind somebody when taking a picture.

Aiyoh cause she's the only one who likes to hog the camera..with her tomato pfft.

Nicely lit candles

Nombor yang aku suka.

Welcome the positive energy!!

Who Does 2008 Belong To?

today is the first day.

but it will not feel like the first day until I open my eyes to the ray of sunlight tomorrow morning. good things start with positive energy. it's 3.10AM now and I just got home from the cousins. everybody is at KO mode so they're fast asleep but I am amazingly fresh and awake.
.
I feel like going on the messenger but nobody's online.

I feel like going on the phone but since I don't usually conversate on the phone for leisure nobody wants to call me pfft. At least not at this time of the night.

I feel like installing the Sims2 but my computer's CD reader has gone crack. So very much in the gaming mood these few days.

I feel like I should get my brother a brithday present. Now.

I feel like going to the karaoke.

I feel like jotting down each and every of my expenses throughout the year so I'd roughly know how much cash I spend annually.

Have A Blissfully Blessed 2008!
"its my life, its now or never. But I ain't going to live forever. I just want to live when I'm alive."- Bon Jovi.