sometimes i really wonder. maybe i am just childish. maybe i do not know how to figure whats wrong and whats right. i really am angry and lost in myself for not hating you. because i actually have no reasons not to. again and again you say stuffs. i get angry each time, really. But i end up explaining to myself thats how you should feel etc. Silly, no?. I always feel like firing back. because whatever u said, are
mostly rumours.
how i wish i could explain to you.
how i wish i could
open your eyes, show you the truth.
but then, again and again you have fire in your eyes. Nothing can get rid of it. Because more and more rascals are volunteering to heat up your rage. No, they know nothing. But it seems to you that they are being truthful. Why do you believe them?. Because they seem so innocent?. Well, i think i know why u believe in them. Its because it gives you another reason to get angry at me. It gives you another reason to hate me. It gives you another reason to release yourself from the stress your facing.
Anyway, thats all I have to say. You promised you wouldnt hate me for I
was a sister. Unfortunately, its crystal clear now. You really hate me. And I think im childish for not doing the same. Because I really want to, but i couldnt.
You will still remain my friend. Maybe ill just treat as if you went for a long holiday. and the now you dont exist anymore. Because i keep strong to your promise. You wont hate me. So if there is a you who hates me, then you're no longer here. You went for a holiday far far away and may never come back. Pretend to be in spaceships, i remmeber we used to when we were younger. So Ill pretend you got lost in the galaxie and failed to come back.
Do what you want. I know im not guilty. After so many attempts of explaining and apologising when im not even wrong, though you believe i was..im at last tired of it.
really really tired. I chose to keep quiet. I feel like your stress bag. Should I be honoured?. I am deeply angry at myself, i repeat..for not hating you. I hope it all ends here.
Goodbye, my friend. Have fun in the galaxie filled with stars.
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Full House 
Damn nice show. Cute romantic type. Square love. Deeply recommended. =D
Currently showing on 8tv, 8.30 pm. Its already heading towards the ending though. Go rent/buy it!. Worthwhile. I
was in this Korea movie fever back in Form 1. And here I am again. *smiles* 16 episodes, only.
Yummy, ive already rewatched the ending again..twice. Spent my whole day watching it. sweet past time. :) and i shall now go hunt for more korean movies. muackz!.
5 reasons why I think i am weird.1. Cleans room after 12.00, by myself.
2. Huge mood swings.
3. I dont change my appetite.
4. I find opera songs nice. well, some of them.
5. No matter how much you hate me, i wont. Because you
were my closest friend.
what shall i say?.
i did something unexpectable.
i saw a bird trying to reach on the the tree branch this morning. it was only an inch until it can reach when it eventually flew down again. it seemed so weak. hmm!
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anyway im so frustrated for Atilia on Malaysia Idol. She was a very talented singer witha powerful voice. what happened. I personally htink the judges should come to good use. If the results depends on the voters, then what are Roslan,Paul Moss and Kak Ji for? Damn wasted!. >:(
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computer lesson. damn bored. i had lotsa stuff to tell but forgottem dee ><"
